So, A is stringing me along big time. I wish he would do something to make me absolutely hate him. I just wish he would because not only am I hurting E, I'm hurting myself. I was talking to A online, and he just signed off on me. Btw, it's FRIDAY today, so he probably had somewhere to go. If he doesn't get on tonight, I'm never talking to him again. I SWEAR.
So anyway. Some drama went down yesterday.
2 nights ago, I was drinking with Autumn, Kandie and A. (I was the only one drinking though, ha) but uh, anyway. I got drunk faster than normal. But anyway, I started to sober up around 4am, and me and A went outside to smoke and all of a sudden, I got this weird feeling. My heart was in my throat, it was hard to breathe, and I felt nauseated. So I put my ciggerette out, and tell A that I was going in. I went towards the bathroom, and halfway there my vision just blanked on me. I felt weak and that I had to sit down. So, I sat down in the bathroom and put some cold water on my face and I felt better. So, I got up and went out to the living room where A was. He was like, "Are you okay?" And I'm like, "No, I feel like I'm going to faint." It was like every time I stood up, I felt like I was gonna come right back down! Haha. So, I go sit in the bathroom again, and A knocks and he's like, "Open the door." I eventually let him in, and he picks me up and lays me on the couch. So anyway. Basically, it was a bad night for me.
4.5 hours later, Autumn wakes me up to go to Little 5 with her. I told her I wasn't feeling well, and she was like, "Okay, we won't be there long. We're just going to get my tattoo and walk around for a little bit." So, I was willing to go. Basically, what should have been a 3 hour trip took 11 HOURS! Autumn didn't even get to the tattoo parlor until about 6 hours after we got to little 5! Autumn, Kandie and Chris ignored me from the get go. I felt uncomfortable. It was horrible. So, Autumn and I are no longer friends.
Today, I sent her a text message that was like, "You are the fakest bitch I know!" That's normally not my style, but I was fuckin LIVID. Then she said I was the bitch all day yesterday. I am NOT at fault on this one. I don't care what anyone says! I had a right to be a bitch. My body was giving out on me, and she didn't care enough to hurry her ass up. So, she called me a moocher and all that shit! First of all, if anyone is a moocher, it's Autumn's girlfriend. Her girlfriend is 28 years old LIVING with autumn. Autumn's girlfriend has no job, no car, nothing. Autumn is 19, btw. She still lives at home with her dad. SOOO, autumn & kandie are mooching off her dad. It's disgusting really. And 2nd of all, pretty girls have it easy in this world. Things are just handed to them. That's something an ugly bitch won't understand, so they get jealous and call us lazy. People offer us things. But anyway, Autumn never gave me a damn thing besides ciggerettes, and a poptart every now and then. Stupid cow!
And autumn was like, "I hope your friends realize how shitty you are." And I was like, "My friends already know how shitty I am. And they love me anyway. They're real." Haha, so she's stupid.
Anyway. I hope my days get better. Seriously.
